I am asked and ask myself
What about a man
Is there one in your life
Or, do you have an active plan?

When a client soft confides in me
A marriage most divine
I find in me a jealousy
The likes of which I hide

Someone to make over me
Wouldn’t it be nice
But weighed against my freedom
Would I be willing to pay the price?

Selfish and unyielding
In touch with reality
The truth is juxtapositional
For it’s how I’d like it to be(*l)

A gymnast of the spirit
Flexibility to a flaw
All martyred in relinquishing
I give my all and all

Ambivalent is my standing
’bout what is it I want
A paper-doll relationship?
In which I’d never need confront?

Or, a man who would inspire me
To dig down to my toes
Confronting preconceptions
Who’d never let me go?

A balance of the scales
With my power still intact
Someone toe to toe
With which to interact?

9/6/08

(*1) … “For it’s how I’d like it to be” … I think what I was trying to
convey in this stanza is the fact that I’d like to see myself as selfish
and unyielding … personal transformation is everything to me, I wouldn’t
want to have to sacrifice that to be in a third dimensional ‘safe’
relationship. I’d like everything else I described above it but, I’d want
my freedom to develop.